I hope one day you read this and it fills your heart and head with love and knowledge.
You are currently the size of a heirloom tomato (according to the Baby Center App) and I’m feeling you kick away as we speak (or type?)! I lie on my back every night with my hand on my belly hoping to feel you kick, it’s my favorite thing to do. Daddy tries talking to you too.
Son, I want you to know that I have not yet met you and I have this immense love for you that is not explainable. As my first boy I’m overfilled with joy and fear as to what is to come! Boys have a reputation of being wild when they’re little and there’s a saying out there, “What you put your parents through as a child, your kid will do 10x worse to you” or something like that. Mommy was a good girl (somewhat until after high school) but I heard Daddy was a daredevil when he was little (He still is).
Daddy, AJ and I are currently living in a two bed room apartment. It’s not the best but it’s home. We own a small pet whom you might not be able to meet. His name is Jeffery and he’s a bit overprotective and he barks A LOT. He’s a loving silly Winnie dog.
You currently have a big sister and a cousin, he’s a boy as well and I hope you two have a great relationship together when you’re older. You only have two aunties and currently one uncle. They’re all pretty cool. Two grandmas and one grandpa who can’t wait to hold you and smother you with lots of kisses. One great grandma who visits often and one great grandpa who lives in a different country. Both grandparents speak fluent Spanish so you’re expected to know their native tongue and we’ll make sure we speak to you in that language too.
Mommy and Daddy are currently going to school and working at the same time. It can get a little hectic sometimes but we do it so that you and AJ are comfortable in the future. Hopefully by the time that you start school we will be set.
I have wished for you for a while (since I started to date your dad). Honestly, I’m afraid. I’m afraid of being a mother of two as it’s been AJ and only AJ for quite some time. I’ve gotten used to my routine and I know your arrival will be something new and challenging and I’m totally up for it. (Do people still say ‘totally’?)
Know that you can talk to me about anything any time. The world is an ugly place at the moment. There is a lot of anger and hate towards our own people, it’s scary. It’s scary to bring up a child during this time. I’m here for you if you ever have problems at school academically and socially. We will come up with a plan and a solution.
Get into trouble but not too much. Don’t be afraid to explore your creativity and your knowledge. Apply for as many clubs, organizations and sports as Daddy and I will be your number one fans! Make lots of friends and don’t forget to respect the girls as they are delicate flowers! Always be a gentleman! Don’t be a bully and enjoy your years in grade school, they will fly and will be one the most important milestones you will complete.
I know we will have disagreements but don’t push me away when we do. I want you to know what’s right from wrong.
Make mistakes and learn from them but don’t repeat them. Mom and Dad are always here to help you with anything, don’t forget that.
Be you and don’t let anyone tell you differently.
I cannot wait to meet you Baby B!
-Your Mom, L